Portlandia!

The universe connected me with an old friend who just happened to be starting a life in Portland, we arrived the same day and have been sharing our opposite tasks this week of arriving and leaving. Thus Ive spent the past week in the nostalgic activity of helping her and her new classmates settle into beginning a life in portland at the national school for natural medicine. As they moved into their new homes and got excited about the city, I was emptying out my storage unit, purging the life I had built with my ex here. I am a packrat and like to keep everything that has any emotional sentiment. My goal for my time here is to work on letting go. This week has been a journey in letting go of the past, painful and difficult though it is, i remind myself that one must let go in order to make room for new stuff and new people. My 8 months here were difficult; lonely, since I didnt make good friends here and my ex was long distance and away half the time, unfulfilled and frustrated by my job, and as gloomy as the weather can be out here. I then left for south america to find myself and my inspiration, and am returning to the same city a different person. It is bittersweet to have helped my new friends get to know the city, I remember when I was in their shoes just one year ago. When I too was seduced by the two months of sun here, the radiant flowers, the amiable people, the green friendly ambiance. Now I see it through the gray filter of heartache, through the lens of "what if, if only" but then have to step back and look at the bigger picture. I have no regrets about coming out here, I was in love and committed, ready for a new chapter and new challenge. I learned a lot about myself, reaching a dark place and how to get out of it. I learned a sad truth about love which is that loving each other and wanting it to work really doesnt mean it will or should work. But fortunately we said goodbye with peace and love and wished each other well. Every experience contains lessons, some are fun and enjoyable and some are painful and difficult to accept. I have learned from the choices I made to come out here and I will carry that knowledge with me forward.

I am extremely grateful to my friend Alix for flying out here to drive 3,000 miles with me back east!

Now it is time to leave this place behind and head out into the future to see what it holds!


We're off to get the hitch put on the trailer! Destination: NYC!